The North and South Nodes of the Moon - Leaving our comfort zones and following our bliss

The Moon has  two opposing Lunar nodes,  called the North and South node, they are also known as the head and tail of the Dragon . The North Node, is the star sign we are reaching toward in this lifetime. Which sign and house it is placed in tell us what the focus should be to fulfill the souls mission, it shows us how to work with the karma, gifts and challenges of the South Node, which represent where we have come from, our past lives.  We need to work hard on achieving it, but it takes it us closer to our destiny, what feels truly and deeply satisfying to us, it might not come quickly or easily. It takes us out of our comfort zones, but it gives us so much fulfillment when we evolve, grow and ascend. 

The South node is the gifts, and the and the things we need to overcome that we bring into this lifetime. it can be a safe comfort zone to return to and rest after periods of evolving towards our purpose, although it is important not to stay here too long, and to make sure we do actually leave here. It's the been there done that, because I believe most of us have, somewhere, sometime, someplace...  The "should" do this because it comes easily to me life, which can bring satisfaction but is unlikely to provide spiritual fulfillment, It's the foundation where we are that can act as stepping stone towards our true destinies and following our bliss. 

The north node is the exact opposite zodiac sign of the south node. It's a light guiding our path, the synchronicities that happen the more we are in alignment, the more we expect them. It is the difficult path to take, but the most rewarding, it challenges us to develop new or underused skills, the old shadow habits we revert back to from our south node certainly won't help us get there. The North Node path requires us to stretch out of our comfort zones and find our fulfillment. Times when I have done this were challenging, but ultimately much more rewarding than anything else I had done before. It is the activation of your life’s mission, as friend wrote;

 "No-one can tell you which direction to take that will lead you to the edge of yourself... That landscape is only yours to discover, if you choose to be the explorer of your own soul... do it! the view is breathtaking! " 

My North Node is in Pisces, with my south being in opposing Virgo. Virgo and Pisces are the signs of health and healing. I read; 

"If you are born with a Virgo north node or a Pisces north node, your destiny involves a path of service, healing and generosity."You may even literally work in the wellness industry. If not, fitness and healthy habits could play an important role in your life lessons.These lunar nodes may veer into addiction or overcome health challenges. Later, you can become teachers and guides for others who struggle with these issues. " 

I recently started training as a herbalist, i'm only 29, and I've been learning important lessons about health for over half my life already. I can really see here becoming overweight because of an awful diet and an emotional eating habit, using conventional diet programs from the age of 14, up  initial I was in my early 20’s, as  well as heavy drinking, later moving onto drugs and eventually giving it all up 3/4 years ago.... they are  main health challenges I have had to overcome and heal and I believe I've experienced them and so I can be a teacher and guide for others, not that i'm there yet, If I find something creamy and delicious, it can be organic, vegan, gluten free...  i'll sometimes make it unhealthy by emotionally eating too much of it, I'm learning of the need to be kind to myself always, succeeding sometimes and doing my best to change one step at a time. 

I can also be a martyr, people pleaser helping others at my own expense.  the most iconic martyr in history, Joan of Arc apparently had a north node in pisces too! I realised whilst reading about Priests that would whip themselves, and wear coarse, maggot infested animal skin "hair shirts" that would aggravate the whipped skin... sounds like one of my past lives! as a natural perfectionist who had been overweight, I once worked as a waiter, and wore 3 pairs of underwear, with a vest tucked in like spanx, saving up for a tummy tuck for the world's smallest amount of excess skin...  sometimes with plasters taping down my basically non existent man boobs and puffy nipples... which I like a lot more now and always found sexy on other men... vainly spending hours in front of the mirror creating a mask and posture that made me look thinner in my face and body ... that sucking in posture I'm still working to release actually made my body feel weak, tired, and releasing it has more or less created the effect a tummy tuck might have done! I’m so glad I chose to spend that money  on therapy instead! It was also created out of physical accidents and emotional trauma, operations/experiments by doctors that know nothing of working wholistically, causing me to close my body in on itself around my pelvis, and tighten my Psoas, pulling me out of alignment. I was doing the best I could at the time to feel comfortable on show to so many people... 

I'm already doing a great job releasing aspects from my virgo south node;

 "Perfectionism, being the helper, analysis paralysis, escaping stress through vices and addictions (self-medicating), worry and anxiety, doing things the hard way or by yourself, controlling, micromanaging, skepticism, dismissal of your intuition or divine guidance, cattiness, verbal daggers/skewering people with your words, gossip" 

I really do struggle so much still with asking for help though! 

I'm doing a great job embracing aspects of my pisces north node too though; 

"Creative freedom, artistic abilities, being the healer, imagination, intuition, developing and trusting your psychic abilities, faith in the universe, allowing support and divine guidance from the universe or a higher power, surrender, processing your emotions without alcohol/substances or other escapes, recovery from addiction, using your words to make people think"

I've been sharing my writing a lot more, and with the love and help of the faeries (the little people and my Radical Faerie Faemily  ) I've created a small business Wild Wands making magical wands, amulets, talismans and dreamcatchers from incredible divine pieces of tree's, crystals, feathers, metals, hemp... I'm taking it seriously as a small business with potential... my creative potential.  I had a reiki attunement and I'm studying herbcraft with a master herbalist, naturopath, druid and pagan teacher, who believes most importantly that we activate the healer within... I have released a lot of grief recently, and I feel the most at peace with who I am I ever have, I feel more attractive, and if I go back to when I hit puberty, I  feel infinitely, unspeakably more comfortable with who I am sexually attracted to... I've always had a few friends but I was obsessed with the idea they didn't like me, judging them and judging myself and judging myself through their eyes... not liking or loving myself enough to be able to really feel it from anyone else, happy to say this has changed a lot although I am grateful, I grieved for myself that its taken this long.  It is all so wonderful and it can all be so challenging too, I feel so blessed to discover these planetary influences that resonate and help me to understand  myself though, I hope this inspires you to find out too